Leap(s) of Faith

I spent the last week or so trying to make sure that I have made all the right preparations for this trip -- made arrangements, talked to people who'd been through similar experiences, researched things, asked questions ... but yet, lots of leaps of faith are still required...  I am landing in Moscow on Sunday around noon -- and I trust that Murat from the Moscow team of my adoption agency will be there to pick us up and take us to the apartment we are renting.  And then, that someone there will be waiting for us to let us in.  The following morning, I have a meeting at the Ministry of Education -- so I trust that someone from my agency will come get me and take me to the Ministry and walk me through the process.  As far as the Russian government is concerned, that will be my first official request to adopt an orphan.  I've hear horror stories of families traveling all the way to Russia, after they've been through all the paperwork, spent all the money, and have the information of a child that they were supposed to be getting.  When they arrive -- the Russian officials tell them that the child is no longer available, and they try to push a different child on them -- often one that doesn't meet the criteria previously agreed upon (gender, age, medical status) -- So I have to trust that this won't happen, and that if it does, I can handle it.  Lots and lots of leaps of faith.  Not easy for a controlfreak...  what am I doing?