Tired

Olga's last words to me were that she'd let me know on Friday, or by Monday latest the exact dates of my return trip to Moscow.  I was traveling all day Friday (and was incredibly lucky that I got back to St. Louis on schedule through JFK -- probably got on the last flight out of there before they shut down the airport).  Right now, it's 4:30 p.m. in Moscow.  No word from Olga, but I would expect to hear from Amy, the caseworker of my agency in North Carolina anyway.  So hopefully I am going to find out today.....  I am exhausted and the thought of jumping back into planning another trip to Russia is not particularly appealing -- searching for plane tickets, visa, apartment, etc. etc.  On the other hand, it would be nice to have more than 5 days to plan the trip, and avoid the extra costs associated with everything being a big rush.
I  also feel very strongly that this process just needs to come to an end -- I am tired of the limbo, or the constant surprises and having to adjust plans and expectations.  And it's time for Alexandra to come home -- this time, that she was older, I could really see that she was upset and confused by all that was going on -- the second day I saw her, it was obvious that she remembered me, and was upset and frightened.  It's going to be a very traumatic transition for her -- and the sooner we get it over with, and get her adjusted to her new (and hopefully better) life, the better.